I feel the weight on my shoulders growing as I see article after article about how to be a better wife and mother. Tonight I saw a Pinterest post about how to make edible gummy Legos, and I wanted to scream. (I don’t hate any of you adorable gummy Lego makers. The never ending creativity God has given His children amazes me! Some day I may be making those wiggly Legos for my grandchildren. We are in an information overload society, and I am relieved when I remember that I can be a good mom without decorating fancy cake pops or making sandwiches that look like Curious George!)
Truly I appreciate the many fabulous articles about becoming a more godly woman, but often I find myself feeling pounded down by how far I fall short. And I’m sure I’ve been guilty of it here – providing opportunities for women to feel guilty because they aren’t doing enough for God. I’m sorry. God loves us – not for being woman of the year. He simply loves us! Oh the wonder of it.
Is it just me or is there a nagging expectation to be on Facebook or else I would simply melt into nothingly irrelevance? (Doesn’t sound too bad. But, I would miss my lovely friends around the world too much. Sigh. Be thankful.) The blessing sometimes becomes a burden, so I appreciate my friends who understand I often need a FB break. Thank you!
I get bedraggled as I, along with many of my sisters in Christ, ache to be thinner. How much of our energy is wasted in worrying about our looks, thinking about food, feeling guilty because we haven’t exercised X amount of time today?! Blah! (I’m all for caring for our temples, but honestly, I wonder how gleeful Satan is with our obsession of personal beauty – ahem, the world’s definition of beauty and success.)
The sin inside me and around me can overwhelm. I can go days without end and not read of current events, blissfully ignorant (more nagging guilt). Fears threaten to beat down the door of my heart and take me prisoner.
But, wait a minute.
As a Child of the living God I should be the personification of God’s peace, joy and love in this world. I am forgiven, bought back, redeemed! The Light of the world is inside me, shining. So what’s with my bushel or the world’s bushel basket trying to snuff Him out? Why is it so hard and my daily cry repeats, “Jesus, please come back quickly!”?!
I want to live the way God wants me to live. I’m giddy when I realize that God made me to be a joyful, peaceful daughter of His! And this is possible because …
- God’s gift is freedom (Luke 4:18; Galatians 5:1)!
- Christ died to free me from self, sin, and Satan so I can direct all glory to Him and have a relationship with Him so sweet and lasting (John 3:16; 14:3; 17:4: Romans 5:8, I Corinthians 10:31).
- He declares in His word it is possible to live in the world and not of it (John 15:19; James 4:4-8; I John 2:15-17).
- He offers me peace, which is so different from what the world offers (John 14:27; Colossians 3:15).
- Jesus is real! So my daily living should be filled with His love, light, and abundance (Matthew 5:16; John 10:10; Philippians 2:15).
- He provides all I need for life and godliness (2 Timothy 2:22; 2 Peter 1:3).
I’d rather focus on God. His beauty lifts me above the mundane, and I am at rest.
I’m not talking about giving abundantly to the church offering so you can be assured God will make you rich. There is a richness that Satan is committed to us missing out on. He’s convinced us that the bliss of walking with God will have to wait until heaven. I don’t want to live like that, and I don’t think Christ wants me to, either.
This life is full of suffering, yet our God is a God of resurrection! He resurrects my worn mind and weary heart to see good birthed from suffering. He is seen most clearly when I am at my weakest! God’s love and grace are greater than sin and Satan NOW. He has already won, and I can live in that knowledge as I gratefully accept Abba’s daily provision of manna from His Word and Spirit.
I often feel too tired to blog, or too humbled to the dust to expect that anything I say is worth hearing. But, I need to write. God made me with the need to express what is inside for a reason. So, I will write. About my God and His love carrying me day by day. I can look forward to eternity with Him, but I believe He wants me to love the journey with Him until He takes me home.
“These things I have spoken to you, that in Me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation; but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world.” John 16:33 NKJV